Today's theme: Fuck.
Published Thursday, January 11, 2007 by Alice Q inAnd not in the good way.
School sort of started for me today, with Camp State Press, Day 1. To be concise, it was long, boring, and lame. And the entire time, I was thinking, "I could so be at work, doing something productive." I mean, I missed the ed team meeting for that crap! ... I love ed team meetings. Lori bakes cookies. :)
Classes don't start until Tuesday, but I'm already behind. My education story is due tomorrow (very, very little done) and I have a state press story due Monday (nothing done). I'm also still unsure about my schedule- I may have to reschedule stuff or drop a class or something. And I haven't bought books yet.
Here's a list of things that suck:
1. School. Actually having to go to classes. Starting Tuesday.
2. State Press. I hate these people now, and again, I actually have to go. Which is weak.
3. Being behind at work. (Did I mention, because of this Camp, I had to go back to work and finish all my deadline stuff. I left at 9:20, which is a new personal record) I hate being behind at work. It sucks.
4. Gas! Fuck. One day of this Goodyear-to-ASU-to-Downtown-to-Goodyear is one freaking quarter of a tank. Which means, as I'll be doing this six days a week, I'll probably use at least two tanks a week... 30$ a tank... 240$ a month in gas. Damn it. I mean, that could easily be worse, but still...
5. Bed time. It's probably going to mean I have to be in bed by nine. And I'll probably end up with a nutty work schedule again, working till 7 or so, plus fourty minutes of driving.. That's like, one hour of "free time". Which, if I had any sense at all, will be spent on homework.
6. I officially have to say goodbye to everything fun. Goodbye to Friday nights out, because I work Saturday mornings. Goodbye to reading for fun, because I won't have time. Goodbye to games- and I didn't finish Zelda! (Goodbye, Link, my darling) Goodbye to House on DVD... Southpark and Colbert Report at night.... Saturday evening church services... and goodbye to my friends, because I know I won't have time to see anyone until the end of the semester. ::sigh:: Oh, and goodbye to family, because if it's anythign like last semester, I'll only see Mom in passing, and see Dad maybe once a week when he guilts me into having dinner with him.
7. Here's the list of every good thing I'll gain:
8. And the bad things I'm trading for: More time stuck in traffic, both ways; more time at ASU, which I hate; those lovely rides on the packed FLASH shuttles to Lot 59, which I'm paying way too much money for; and being constantly stressed out. Being poor, more often; and parking tickets.
Damnable.
And yeah, this may be a little dramatic and pessimistic, but it's not that far off. This would have been what it was last semester, had I actually tried in school. Which I didn't. At all. And my goal for this semester is to give half a damn.
Damn.
Go ahead and whine and hate Alice. But you know this is a good thing. Yeah you have to suffer a bit for it. But it's a good experience. And just sleep less until it starts affecting your life in a negative way. That way you get free time and the bonus of sleep-deprived hallucinations.
Did you know that a person who hasn't slept in 72 hours is just as likely to hallucinate as someone on LSD?
Maybe this is the innate quitter in me talking, but why would you want to kill yourself for something when its completely unnecessary?
I hate stress. So I try not to go looking for it in heap-fulls.
I mean, come on. Do you *like* the headaches? the insomnia? the longer commute from driving all over creation? and wasting the gas to do so?
If you think about the hours at work you're pulling, plus the 15 credit class load, plus additional stories for both work and your 301 class, why in hell would you want to top it all off with devoting your spare free time to idiots and assholes who aren't worth your time to begin with?
When you could be sleeping. Hanging out. Actually *enjoying* your college experience.