Alice hates ...

Yeah, it's been a while. But let's just say I've been sufficiently nagged by one of my most favoritest people in the world enough to spur me into action. Most favoritest...

Let's see, shall we? What's been going down in Alice Land of late...

Oh, okay. I had a B3 Thursday this week. Which was fun. I came into work on Wednesday after class to take Waffles to lunch, but when I sat down at my desk to check my email, my editor came up and asked me to do a quick daily story. Turns out, not so much "quick" as in, short and easy. Quick as in, "intense, want it now". But I had fun, and I felt like a rock star. When I get to do fun stuff like that, it reaffirms my career choice. ::sigh::

Also, Rachel and I started watching The 10th Kingdom miniseries last week. We watched one tape last Sunday. I feel kinda bad, because I know Rachel wants to finish it, but she's patiently waiting for me to watch it with her. Except that I don't have a lot of time for late night VHS viewing. So tonight, I'm hoping to make that up by having her over for dinner and fun. The only downside I can see is that I have a very, very tiny VHS tv. But I think I can over come that by dragging it into my bedroom, and enjoying the movie from the snuggled comfort of my wonderful, bepillowed bed. (Yes, I made up the word. It's a nice one.)

The series is great. I'm actually really excited. According to IMDB, because I have a goldfish-like memory, this came out my freshman year of high school. I remember watching parts of it with Mom. :D And of course, rehashing with Rachel the next day. And oh man, we were all about Scott Cohen, who plays Wolf! I feel really dorky admitting it, but it's true. Sad but true.

But tonight will be the second of three tapes. Aw, yeah, you heard me. Tapes.

Thinkthinkthink, what to do to entertain...

Waffles and I are good. Which is great (For me, anyway). He had an A1, and let me just say, I'm in love with a rock star. :D

We had our second fight... two weeks ago? I know it was a Thursday at any rate.

But fights suck. He made a joke that hurt my feelings, and being me, I can't just say that and have it out right there. Nope! I have to let it marinate and fester for days. And it's not like he can't tell; he's not a moron and I know that. He's asking, "Are you okay? What's wrong? Are you upset?" and I'm going, "No, no, I'm fine. Don't worry.". Meanwhile, I'm trying to think of a way I can get to my car so I can run away without having to talk about it.

I'm not happy about that, but I just know it's the way I am. I'd love to be able to just talk stuff out, but it's part of my shyness. My first instinct is usually to lie about my feelings. I'm working on it. Actually, I'm working lots of little parts of my shyness. It's something new for me, having to share my life with someone.

For example, I try not to complain when he buys me stuff. Like dinner. I used to always complain, but not so much anymore.

Or, changing in front of him. It's completely silly, but I used to leave the room to change or make him turn around. But I'm getting used to letting him stay. And it helps, that he's completely sweet about it and tries to look away. Helps my sanity out some. There's also a really good example from this morning which I won't share, but I'm patting myself on the back. I even made a little sarcastic and self depricating comment, which must mean I'm getting better. :D

And thirdly, (I was just thinking about this now) I'm working on sharing my thoughts. I know, that sounds really lame, but the thing with quiet people is that they spend a lot of time thinking. Now, the thoughts are usually the smae thing as with loud and outgoing people, I'm not going to say I think anything particularly deep. Most of the time, they're really inane, and that's part of why I just don't say it. This thought isn't worth the energy I would waste by speaking it.
Or something like that.

And then compound that with a girl that loves to laugh, and you get a strangely quiet person that sometimes starts giggling for no reason at all. And this is how it ALWAYS goes down:

Scene- an afternoon drive. Two people sit, listening to NPR. It's the Market Report.

::silence::

Alice: Tee hee hee.
Matt: What?
Alice: Nothing.
Matt: No, what?
Alice: Silly. Nothing.
Matt: Come on, share.
Alice: No.
Matt: Please?
Alice: It's nothing, really.
Matt: C'mon, share, please?
Alice: Ahhh, fine. Just, I was just thinking... (insert any really weak but mildly funny idea. I'd do it, but I can't think of anything specific)
Matt: (pause) Oh.

See, that's how it always goes. Or something similar, where I apparently get a look on my face that demands to be explained. And I'm sure these things would be much more funny or relevant if I would just SAY it when I think it...

So anyway, I'm working on that, too. For example, this morning, after getting donuts:

Alice: (Opens milk, takes a sip, looks at the bottle.)
Matt: What? Is your milk okay?
Alice: Sure. It's chocolately and delicious.
Matt: You had a look. What were you thinking?
Alice: (Did NOT say, nothing.) I was wondering why Dunking Donuts stocks this brand of milk. Swiss-something, and not Shamrock, since Shamrock is a local company and a pioneer of the consumer sized bottled milk trend.
Matt: Maybe this milk is less expensive?
Alice: Than something locally produced? Possibly. But then again, Dunkin Donuts isn't a local company so I doubt they'd care about Shamrock anyway.
Radio: ... mumble mumble.... Elvis Costello covers...
Matt: oooh. (turns it up)

--End Scene--


So anyway, that might be a little lame, but it's proof that I'm working on it. And when we slid back into silence just after that, I started thinking about the milk industry some more.


Hmm, I think I might be rambling at this point, so I'm going to post this, read through it, and maybe keep going in another post. Let's see, shall we?